I messaged this on Facebook to a girl whom I loved whole heartedly for 2 years. Well it was totally one sided but it was my first love. I tried and tried for 2 years to make things happen between us but sadly I didn’t succeed. I was moving to a different place. So this was my goodbye message. This is not funny or sarcastic but it was straight from a broken heart.
Hey hii. I hope you are doing well. Don’t be shocked or worried that I messaged you. I don’t know you will even read it or not because I went on writing & message turned out to be really big :/ Nothing has happened nor it’s an attempt to convince you 1 more time. I’m moving to a different location & so probably we won’t face each other again in our life. I know you don’t care about that but seeing you at least for a second in a day used to matter a lot to me. I wanted to assure you that there won’t be any trouble in your life again because of me.
I consider myself very unlucky to have lost something which was very precious for me even after trying for 2 years & only I know what a big loss it is. Its going to hurt me for long long time & probably forever. I waited & waited for things & my life to change. The more I waited with a hope the more it pained but I will never regret it because I know waiting for you was worth all the pain. But at some point I have to realize that I have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step is to stop. Leave you alone & walk away. It’s not like I am giving up, & it’s not like I didn’t try. It’s just that I have to draw a line of determination from desperation. What is truly mine will eventually be mine, & what is not, no matter how hard I try it will never be.
You were not wrong in how you behave in all these years in my case. If anyone tells me you were wrong or anything then I can prove him that what you did is something any decent girl will do in similar situation. I never wanted to trouble or irritate you but if I did then I am really sorry but that was purely accidental and not at all intentional. Failing to get what you love so much after waiting for so long hurts to be honest but at least I got to experience what love is when so many people don’t & thanks a million times for that. If not you then it would have been no one even till now. I have experienced best and worst part of loving someone but I am going to remember you only for the best part.
I’ll just pray that you remain happy always & wish you loads of success. Other than your family if there is that 1 person who will be the most happy to see you successful then that’s me. If I can ever play any role in your success then I’ll be more than happy to do that. Whenever you go through a tough time, never forget I am there somewhere praying for you & your happiness even though I won’t be part of your life. Life is not easy as I found out, but I wish & hope that you will triumph in all situation & tough times. I did few things for your good about which you are unaware but henceforth I’ll stop doing them not because I no more care for you but because you don’t want me to be that person who should think about your good. Though a bit difficult but I’ll try to move on & you delete my chapter from your life & live happily.
I can talk about you for long time but I guess I should stop now already that message has become big.
Lastly, sorry for everything. You are a nice person, never let anything change it. All the best for your future. Take care
I never expected she would reply to me. But she is nice enough to reply me saying “All the best for your future endeavour”
I really missed her but hope some angel will come into my life and cure all my painJ After love is not about always winning but it’s about losing something for the sake of other’s happiness.